When the going gets tough...
... the tough go blogging! Yes, it's been a few days. I don't pretend to have a cult following that would really notice, but thanks to the few (ok, one) that noticed! But geez, life is hard. And it kinda comes at you from nowhere. blah blah blah... Seriously though... it begs some hard questions...
Do you have an inner child? I always thought that was newage speak, but now I'm starting to wonder. I think mine likes to color, turn cartwheels, and go roller-skating. It's a deep thought, but I think some of the issues I'm dealing with as of late are because my inner child is jealous of my real one. I resent her innocence and charm, I long to be both of those again. My childhood was full of perfection and measuring up, and I see myself trying to force that on her.
Do you think that babies have memory from their time in the womb? Most of what we are seeing is seperation related, a very real form of panic and anxiety at being out of her sight. I'm wondering if she has any memory or acute awareness of the wreck that almost killed us both when I was 8 months pregnant with her. Almost two hours passed while they cut me out of the car. All that adreanaline and fear has to leave a mark somewhere? It sure did on me.
I'm so thankful that we're allowed to be a work-in-progress. Because if I had to know that 'this' is the finished version of me... I'd be really dissapointed! So I'm digging in, and doing some research. Not allowing myself to be a victim of my own ignorance. I feel like I should wear one of those signs you see at a remodeling project around town "Please pardon our dust - we're improving for you!"
posted by Tracy @ 12:21 PM
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I do believe that we all have an inncer child begging to "come out and play". I think that as long as we treat her (in our cases) with resspect it is ok to let her loose and color, and do cartwheels from time to time. As for babies/children remember being in the womb I think they do...at least for a little while. At least until they are jaded by the "real world". I know that my 6 1/2 year old still talks about "before she was born" and when she was in heaven with God, Jesus, and the other babies. She also talks of a sister that she had shile she was in my tummy. She says that the sister told her that she(the sister) had to die and go back to heaven so that she (my child) could be born. Well, in the very early stages of my pregnancy I had a lot of bleeding one Sunday and went to the ER. They told me to go home and plan on loosing the baby. On the foloowing Tues. we had an ultrasound at my dr. office and on the picture you see my kiddo and this paisly looking thing. I believe and believed before she told me this story that I was pg with twins and just lost one. Who knows??? But, Tracy I think you are on to something both with yourself and your child.
mandylea
I'd like one of those signs too!
Without your inner child life isn't the same. I lost my inner child at one point and know of what I speak.
Does a child have memories from the womb? Very possible but I agree with Mandylea, they are probably hidden in the depths of our brains and fade as we begin to grow and new life experiences take their place.
I have very vivid memories from age 1, some good and some not... but I truly beleive they are true and not imagined.
Keep that inner child thriving within... it will keep you young and help with your youngster...
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